IdraaK !

Tmhain kis ne kaha hai ye,
K main bhool payi hon,
Ghalat fehmi hai tumhari bas.
Na koi naya rasta talasha hai,
Na koi simt teh ki hai,
Ik jag hasai pe bas ankhain bheegi hain,
Meray dil ko yad hai tum ne,
Jis lamhay tora tha, laho ka ghusl dia tha,
Han bas us din he roi thi,
Par kahan jante ho k phir main kab soi hun,
Tamsha ban gayi thi main,
Bari thi hoi jag hasai bhi,
Main ik bar phir se lauti thi,
Umeed e wafa lekar teray shehr ayi thi,
Par wahan pohnchi to khabr ye suni main ne,
Tmaharay shehr walay,
Kisi or to tum se mansoob hain kar bethay,
Na phir junbish hoi ghanton,
Na main sans le payi,
Akaili main bhara majma’n,
Kharaba dil gaya lamha,
Na phir laut payi main na ruk kabhi payi,
Jo rasta teh kia mil kar,
Ussi pe hum bechar aye,
Wo rukhsat akhri thi apni,
Teray shehr main na phir kabhi aye!!

 

I always wanted to be sure,
Of everything I had and everything I do,
I each time put a step forward,
I did it with passion and so much effort,
With certainty to win and no hopes to lose,
But then one day,
I felt as if my feet’s are somewhere down,
Deeper then I could imagine,
Heavy and fatigue,
I tried hard with all my strength,
But nothing helped,
And then I remember the God of mine,
HE who created me once,
With a certainty of nothing but my return,
I felt the path was easy,
Though my feet still pained,
But a wave then came,
I took away the sand and my hostage feet,
They were set free,
Nothing changed,
The sea still was calm and waves were same,
But I was different,
The belief was born-again…

Mujhe abhi bhi dard hota hai,
Par main aj bhi isko zahir yun naheen karti,
K itnay baray jahan main sunaon kisko bhala apni,
Yahan to hal wo hai k,
Guzar jain jo chand log to afsos bhi bhari hai,
Koi mar jaye to ab giran na dil pe guzarta hai,
Na zara afsurdgi ch'hati hai,
Jahan zinda rehnay walon ko saza jeenay ki milti hai,
Or marne walon ko ,
Bhala unka kia tazkira karon main,
K wo begunah lashain kafan ko he tarasti hain,
Lahoo main doobi hoi lashain,
Wo piyaron ki ah’hain or sadain,
Main jab yeh sab sunti hon,
To ansoo poonch kar apne,
farsh se kuch bulndi par asman se zara agay,
Ik nighah e dard k hathon,
Pegham e ilteja rakh kar hawaon k naam karti hon,
K dukh unke baray honge jinke apne gaye honge,
MALIK! to unko sabr ab dena,
Or hosla bakhsh kar hisar apna zara karna,
K wo ashk ankhon main samaye,
Teri imdad k muntazir honge,
Mera kia hai?
Main aglee bar apni phir hajat minmina dongi,
Abhi unki sun le to jinhon ne lashain uthayi hain,
Lahoo main dobay piyaro'n ki qabrain banayi hain,
Aye Allah ab rehm ho in par,
Dukhon k ye satye hain…


- illusiOn~


I was depressed like every other time in start the theme was different but as I wrote it eventually turned to a different destination..

Abhi ye raat baqi hai,
Meri sanson main bhi rawani hai,
Magar kal jab yeh chand mujhe se mun mor kar,
Kis or dais main ja tu’lu hoga,
Main us waqt se darti hon,
Jab koi raat akhri hogi,
Libas e kafn urh kar main,
Phir nayi subh yun dekhon gi,
K kuhram e fugh’an,
mere charon tarf brpa hoa hoga,
Mera dil dob jata hai,
Bas ye anjam sooch kar he,
Kaise samna hoga kia mera muqam hoga,
Kia wo bakhshnay wala tab mehrba’n hoga,
Mera dil doob jata hai anjam e bewafai par,
Jo na dooba judai par wo khhon roota hai,
Ussay shanasai par,
Mujhe phir dar sa lagta hai,
Ankhain band karne se,
Thakan se chor hokar bhi,
Main garm bistar par narm takiye par,
Khuwabon ki chah lekar ankh band karti hon,
To anjam yad ata hai,
Wo sari ankahi batain, wo sari ghalat fehmi,
Wo jhagra wo badtameezi wo sab yad ata hai,
Mera dil kan’p jata hai,
Or wo Mehrba’n mujhko har bar maaf karta hai,
Neend ko naam wo mera ik naya pegham deta hai,
Zehn ko doob janay ka samaan deta hai,
Umeed e subh thama kar wo mujhe inaam deta hai..
- illusiOn~

Waqt ka takaza tha,
Jisse main chor aya tha,
Wo abhi tak akeli thi,
Usay to bhol jana tha or agay bharna tha,
Magar ye kia hoa k main,
Ab k jo us taraf aya  Khara usko waheen paya,
Wohi be-rbtgi si thi wohi andaz thay uskay..,
Wohi tevar puranay waheen atkay se ansoo thay,
Na janay kiun aas lagay wo khari waheen thi,
Pata to usay bhi tha mujhe naheen lut kar ana,
Meri manzil to agay thi bas saath he chotna tha,
Jab main tasleem kar betha to wo kiun mehv-e-intezar thi,
Jise main chor aya tha ussi ki yeh kahani thi..

Ajeeb dasht hai k ,
Zakhum alood jigar hai,
Babool jaise bana raha hai,
Nishan meri shikasta roh pe,
Main jiyon kaise,
Or maron main kiun kar?
Magar is shikasta’s roh se koi to poochay,
Koi to samjhaye,
Meri roh k zakhum hain aise,
K kar rahain hain jism ko \ghayal,
Main mar rahi hon na jee rahi hon,
Zakhum zakhum hon bas,
Lahoo lahoo hoi hun.

Tired are my hands,
Emotionally I failed,
Its just the platinum of my courage,
On which I stand,
I wanted to be like you,
Run away from the window,
As sorrow enters from the gate,
But do you think even,
if I follow your foot prints,
Will that  make me,
Happy ever after again???

- illusiOn ~

 Being apart from each other,
It was easy yet and a convenient choice,
Made by you and approved by me,
And now we both are towards our,
Different destinations!
Its fine with me but it hurts,
When each morning I see my pillow,
Wet and stained,
I hate myself why do I miss you?
It gets worst when dawn falls,
And I go somewhere,
Where you memories lies too,
I get mad on my companion,
I wish I could be mad at you,
As when you were going,
Taking things with you,
You tooth brush, your clothes shoes and accessories,
Why you forget them,
Didn't took them with you,
The memories we shared with in past few years,
I don’t want to rewind,
Here, take these with you,
Live them and feel how it is,
When every day you get up,
With a hope that you will live again,
But with pillow that is wet and stained..

- illusiOn ~

I met her again near the lake,
This time me sad and she felicitous,
I was burning with every breath I take,
Cigarette flames were the only light,
Silence as the only agonist among us,
Darkness was our only guide,
And then she shed the tears of love,
For one she loved and the one she had,
Her cries were loud deep in pain,
But what to do when the eyes rain,
Oh! how could I stop her and cease her pain,
As I was the reason , the hard-hearted Cain,
Should I tell her of all I faced,
I grieve on what I caused,
But my girl knows,
Things were beyond my reach,
She yelled and I heard her screaming,
I heard her and I turned,
Glared as if I heard all wrong,
How this could happen, my world seems fallen,
I felt like dying, dying all in,
I stared her face from forehead to her nose,
And her lips, yes those rose red lips,
That I once kissed,
They opened wide as if they wish to smile,
I cleared my throat and my watering eyes ,
I wiped them off as she was about to forgot,
Who I was,
I went near by with a wished to clutch her tight,
So that I could fly up light but how could I when,
’ She was in LOVE again ’!

- illusiOn ©

P.S( Its my first story in poetic way, just a try.. suggestions and corrections.. r welcum..)

I want to wear the dress of silence,
I want to be quite now,
As I no more can shout with a choked throat,
I seek an escape yes! I want to run,
I want to jump up and fly high,
I want to discover the world and hide,
It was never about ‘you’,
Yes! it was never about ‘us’,
All revolves around me,
It’s always about ‘I’..

 

 

Before my sun sets
let me dream
let me Muller my begrudge gleams
I want to run I want to rush
Before death makes me deem
As absence of hope
can stop my streams
But reams assures me
Wishes with hopes rapped in prayers
Can never be ceased..

-illusiOn~

I saw her down the valley,
Again, near the lake side; looking so lonely,
Cigarette burning between two fingers,
She looked dazed from crashed memories,
Quiet but awake,
Serene but crashed,
Soft but mistrusted,
Strong she looked yet weak too,
Lost beyond disturbance,
I could feel it always and she could see it never,
Her glittering eyes were deep in pain,
Busy, she was; in collecting her memories, her treasure,
Drowned in her dreams,
Shattered dreams that were dashed into pointed pieces,
Shards that wounded her hands while they gathered,
I could see blood, wounds and tears,
Glimpses of invisible shearing pain she felt,
I want her to be happy again,
I hope she finds love again,
But my desires and hopes have different paths to lead,
I take my eyes off her,
And leave her down the valley,
To let her stand on her feet again,
And she will be in love again!

-illsuiOn~

A turning point came in my life,

Dark, very dark and so very quiet,
As if nobody could hear me,
Restless and keen I was, to,
Know what's wrong, why I was,

Surrounded with infinite silence,
I wanted to scream but my voice was choked,
Languid I was, with no hope,
Escape I wanted but had no hope,
Not now, not again,
Tired and fatigued, but couldn't move on,

Groan in agony, as emotions melt from my heart
Result was in tears, leaving my eyes,
Although I loved silence,
Voices but I now wanted for sure,
Eager, bolstering words from my loved ones

-illusiOn~

P.S( Maverick thank you so much for help and you know what i wrote it keeping you in mind, imagining you and myself off course)
P.S.S( Its dedicate to me and maverick exclusively) heheh

My love if its not you but her,
If she is my love,
Whose right now is in my arms
Then why when i close my eyes
I see your image
Why I always try to find you in her
Why her touch doesn't possess the magic
That yours weilded,
Why your touch always ensnared my heart
And hers makes no difference,
Why her closeness doesnt make my heart flutter,
Why eyes of mine search you even when she is around
My love, if its her, why do I then look for you,
And if she is not and you are the one,
So baby just tell me
Why I let you go
My love if its you but not her!

-illlusiOn~

P.S( I dont know why i wrote it.. but yes i wrote it for Tainted Love up coming blogisode.. )

She was silent,
Silent as if she holds no words with in her,
Imbue in her own pain deep in her thoughts,
Nothing was wrong,
And so nothing was right,
Affably lovely and gorgeous,
She was all for me,
But oblivion I was for her,
I wanted to lag her heart,
And replace it with mine,
If only I could ever get a chance,
Embleming her with me was not only my passion,
But my dream my love for her,
Oh ! Yes but I was wrong,
I never wanted to ail her but i did,
And I was aidos on it,
I loved her and,
I wanted her as she was everything to me,
And I was noone but a zilch for her,
Nothing, nothing at all matters to me,
But just my love,
Love of mine, love for her.

-illusiOn~

Frozen I am standing,
Remembering your grace,
I still miss you,
Embolden I was everytime you were around,
Need of you it still here with me,
Do come back as my friendship still lasts,
Same it will be forever, for you,
How much I love, is not the question,
I still miss you and that what matters,
Protest I will, if you don't! ... miss me

:)

Frank and free, easy to be with,
Relation we all wants such,
I even want so,
Emblaze I was when we met,
Now I did why i felt so,
Different you were but not from me,
So fimiliar you looked, it,
Happens not with all of us,
I now have a friend like you, what else I need,
Praise, honour, love. none but you.. forever..

-illusiOn~

For more check:http://acrosticonly.blogspot.com/

Abhi to usnay ana tha,
Nai umangon naye armanon k liye,
K uski behn ki shadi thi,
Abhi to tankhuwa ayi thi,
Usnay to kal ana tha,
Magar ye kia k wo aj aya bhi to,
Char kandhon par,
Safaid libas pehnay,
Usay to ye rung khalta tha,
Khuwab or khumar rakhnay wali ankhain aj band theen,
Na janay kiun wo itni ghairi neend main doba tha,
Halankay kai kam abhi uskay adhoray thay,
Kai jaga card denay thay kai intezam karnay thay,
Phir wo kiun or kaise sogaya tha,
Behn ko rukhsat bhi to usnay karna tha,
Magar yahan to meri beti usay wida kar rahi thi,
Kai bar samjhaya usay par,
Hameesha isay satata hai rulata hai,
Jab ye roth jati hai phir manata hai,
Meri beti aj Khush amdeed kehnay k bajaye,
Bhai ko KHUDA HAFIZ keh rahi hai ,
Bhala anay walaon ko kb aise kehtay hain?
Keh rahi hon issay k hansay zara bolay,
Iska bhai aya hai,
Par ye ro rahi hai or wo chup laita hai sunta naheen,
So raha hai shayed thak kar aya hoga,
Magar usay to kal ana tha..

-illusiOn~


P.S(dedicatd to those who died in islamabad attach last night.. najanay kiski maa uska intezar ab tak kar rahi ho)

-illusiOn~

P.S(My first try to acrostic poem do comment how it is)
P.S.S( Asbah bundle of thanks for suggesting me to be with mav he helps a lot love u both)

They say
talk more it helps
but when it can?
When it did?
As i am talking since my birth
with my family
with you my love
But why i am always
heard not listened?
Why my questions are
difficult to answer?
Why instead of anything
you all have to say is 'just like that'
why cant people listen to me
When i want to speak
what i want to say.!
I want to talk
But there is noone to listen
a bunch can hear but they
They cant listen..!

-illusiOn~