IdraaK !

Abhi ye raat baqi hai,
Meri sanson main bhi rawani hai,
Magar kal jab yeh chand mujhe se mun mor kar,
Kis or dais main ja tu’lu hoga,
Main us waqt se darti hon,
Jab koi raat akhri hogi,
Libas e kafn urh kar main,
Phir nayi subh yun dekhon gi,
K kuhram e fugh’an,
mere charon tarf brpa hoa hoga,
Mera dil dob jata hai,
Bas ye anjam sooch kar he,
Kaise samna hoga kia mera muqam hoga,
Kia wo bakhshnay wala tab mehrba’n hoga,
Mera dil doob jata hai anjam e bewafai par,
Jo na dooba judai par wo khhon roota hai,
Ussay shanasai par,
Mujhe phir dar sa lagta hai,
Ankhain band karne se,
Thakan se chor hokar bhi,
Main garm bistar par narm takiye par,
Khuwabon ki chah lekar ankh band karti hon,
To anjam yad ata hai,
Wo sari ankahi batain, wo sari ghalat fehmi,
Wo jhagra wo badtameezi wo sab yad ata hai,
Mera dil kan’p jata hai,
Or wo Mehrba’n mujhko har bar maaf karta hai,
Neend ko naam wo mera ik naya pegham deta hai,
Zehn ko doob janay ka samaan deta hai,
Umeed e subh thama kar wo mujhe inaam deta hai..
- illusiOn~

Waqt ka takaza tha,
Jisse main chor aya tha,
Wo abhi tak akeli thi,
Usay to bhol jana tha or agay bharna tha,
Magar ye kia hoa k main,
Ab k jo us taraf aya  Khara usko waheen paya,
Wohi be-rbtgi si thi wohi andaz thay uskay..,
Wohi tevar puranay waheen atkay se ansoo thay,
Na janay kiun aas lagay wo khari waheen thi,
Pata to usay bhi tha mujhe naheen lut kar ana,
Meri manzil to agay thi bas saath he chotna tha,
Jab main tasleem kar betha to wo kiun mehv-e-intezar thi,
Jise main chor aya tha ussi ki yeh kahani thi..

Ajeeb dasht hai k ,
Zakhum alood jigar hai,
Babool jaise bana raha hai,
Nishan meri shikasta roh pe,
Main jiyon kaise,
Or maron main kiun kar?
Magar is shikasta’s roh se koi to poochay,
Koi to samjhaye,
Meri roh k zakhum hain aise,
K kar rahain hain jism ko \ghayal,
Main mar rahi hon na jee rahi hon,
Zakhum zakhum hon bas,
Lahoo lahoo hoi hun.

Tired are my hands,
Emotionally I failed,
Its just the platinum of my courage,
On which I stand,
I wanted to be like you,
Run away from the window,
As sorrow enters from the gate,
But do you think even,
if I follow your foot prints,
Will that  make me,
Happy ever after again???

- illusiOn ~

 Being apart from each other,
It was easy yet and a convenient choice,
Made by you and approved by me,
And now we both are towards our,
Different destinations!
Its fine with me but it hurts,
When each morning I see my pillow,
Wet and stained,
I hate myself why do I miss you?
It gets worst when dawn falls,
And I go somewhere,
Where you memories lies too,
I get mad on my companion,
I wish I could be mad at you,
As when you were going,
Taking things with you,
You tooth brush, your clothes shoes and accessories,
Why you forget them,
Didn't took them with you,
The memories we shared with in past few years,
I don’t want to rewind,
Here, take these with you,
Live them and feel how it is,
When every day you get up,
With a hope that you will live again,
But with pillow that is wet and stained..

- illusiOn ~

I met her again near the lake,
This time me sad and she felicitous,
I was burning with every breath I take,
Cigarette flames were the only light,
Silence as the only agonist among us,
Darkness was our only guide,
And then she shed the tears of love,
For one she loved and the one she had,
Her cries were loud deep in pain,
But what to do when the eyes rain,
Oh! how could I stop her and cease her pain,
As I was the reason , the hard-hearted Cain,
Should I tell her of all I faced,
I grieve on what I caused,
But my girl knows,
Things were beyond my reach,
She yelled and I heard her screaming,
I heard her and I turned,
Glared as if I heard all wrong,
How this could happen, my world seems fallen,
I felt like dying, dying all in,
I stared her face from forehead to her nose,
And her lips, yes those rose red lips,
That I once kissed,
They opened wide as if they wish to smile,
I cleared my throat and my watering eyes ,
I wiped them off as she was about to forgot,
Who I was,
I went near by with a wished to clutch her tight,
So that I could fly up light but how could I when,
’ She was in LOVE again ’!

- illusiOn ©

P.S( Its my first story in poetic way, just a try.. suggestions and corrections.. r welcum..)

I want to wear the dress of silence,
I want to be quite now,
As I no more can shout with a choked throat,
I seek an escape yes! I want to run,
I want to jump up and fly high,
I want to discover the world and hide,
It was never about ‘you’,
Yes! it was never about ‘us’,
All revolves around me,
It’s always about ‘I’..